*sigh* what I wouldn't give for a laxy afternoon. one where i didn't feel guilty for slacking off. like has been very busy lately. not in a bad way. days have been filled with friends and work. this last weekend was a bit rough. going through an off patch with my roommate. i've been dating recently and she's been very judgemental. sometimes i really don't get where she's coming from. i mean usually i'm pretty good with empathy. but i just don't get it. i've been using a dating site called plenty of fish. I find it hard to find men. I do, she thinks i shouldn't .. I don't know what world she live in. She thinks online dating is super dangerous. which i readily admit to. but how is me going out on a date with someone from the internet all that different than her bringing a guy home from a university event and sleeping with him the first night? just because you meet someone in person doesn't automatically make them safe. anyone at any time can lie to you. it just makes me mad that she is so judgemental. she's the 'pretty one' and has guys falling over her. so it sucks she's judgemental for me using the only means i have to find guys. now i'll be honest i think i'm pretty good looking so i don't really get why i don't get approached but that's the way it is. *phew* okay now the rant is done.

Gosh it's been a long time. Just haven't been much up for blogging lately. But by gosh I'm going to start up again. I say that now at least.

Yoga has been going great guns lately. Lots of Prenatal students and tons of new classes for me to teach. I love having students you get to see all the time and really connect with. We're slowly building our pre and post natal program and it's really exciting.

I've had some health concerns lately but they are definitely starting to look up. I was severely anemic for awhile, I just couldn't figure out why I was sleeping 12 hours and was still totally exhausted. Well it turns out that when you have no iron in your blood and therefore very little haemoglobin or oxygen in your blood stream that kinda happens. Sheesh I was such a wreck. But I'm now in iron pills so that's getting better. Plus at this time I was having weird spinal problems. I have scoliosis and I'm hypermobile (aka double jointed) so I had a few ribs popping out of place. Which let me tell you hurts like a fucker. It's ridiculous how much a little rib can hurt. So now I'm back to spending enormous amounts at the chiropractor to keep those suckers attached to me. tehe.

Hmm what else? I'm planning a weekend to Montreal in a few weekends. I have a friend who lives there with his fiancee and they are letting me stay with them. I can't wait to see him. It's been nearly a year since I last saw him. And you gotta keep your dancer friends :) We might film a duet in the metro station ... don't worry I'll totally post it if that happens.

Goodnight all!

Hey all! i'm baaaack. *giggles*

I just the most absolutely amazing weekend ever. Here in Ottawa there is an aboriginal women's support centre called Minwaashin Lodge. Every year there is a huge women's gathering. It was just this past weekend and boy was it incredible. It had tons of traditional things to do. Drumming and singing circles, sweat lodges, crafts (quill earrings, dream catchers), sacred fire, elder teachings. It was a pretty break through weekend personally. During a mandala workshop the image of a wild horse running came to my mind. One of the facilitators later made a comment that horses aren't afraid of their own power. Boy did the tears flow. I realized that i don't embrace my own power and i am damn well going to start. so there. :D

I've been a bit (okay alot) out of touch with blog world lately. I've moved into a friend's place for a couple of months and for some reason can't pick up wireless in her place. So I only come online when I get a break at work or use my roomie's computer. I miss you guys! Life is touch and go but for the most part i'm hangin' in. For tonight I'm going to curl up with my Mary Higgins Clark novel and sleep in my comfie new queen sized bed! hurray for big beds, i just upgraded and i loooove it! i get to stretch ooooouuuuutttt :D :D :D I am totally sleeping diagonally across the bed, so much fun. okay enough talk of that delicious bed ... i'm going to go get in it!

Ahhh big breaths! or not. you know spring is here when you smell skunk. yay *rolls eyes* but in all seriousness I'm unbelievably happy that warm weather is here. I strongly dislike being cold. And sandals? thank heavens. Any excuse to wear my birks and i'm happy. I've been crazily busy with work lately. It's like there has been a steady trend towards everyone quiting and we're so understaffed. But amazingly, I still feel fantastic. A bit of anxiety but absolutely no sign of depression or sadness or anything remotely not positive. Which makes me want to practically sing with joy. I still wish for a fairy tale to come wisk me away but ya know what? I feel like I'm halfway there. I'm going to make my own fairy tale gosh darn it and it will be fabulous. like me. *wink wink* Diligent Happiness as a certain wise lady says (Elizabeth Gilbert, go look her up). Big smiles all around people!

Today I hurt everywhere! Yesterday I went rock climbing and while I had a super amazingly fun time, today my whole body aches. And to top off that I had a full day of learning how to give thai massage. ow. would it be bad to take a bath in tiger balm? lol. harumph

I have only one thing to say today. It may be petty and small but I'm saying it anyway. And loudly too.

Damn you Robert Mugabe, damn you.